This scene was amazing. Bai Yu Tong and Zhan Yao had a family dinner at the Bai villa that Zhan Yao’s father also attended. And then his dad started tearing into him right there, at the table, in front of everybody, and the Bai family didn’t know what to do, where to look, because it was so awkward.
But Yu Tong’s reaction was the best. When Old Zhan mentioned his son’s canceled trip to the US, Yu Tong immediately knew where this was headed. The way he slowly looked up, chewing just as slowly, and then he changed the topic as quickly as possible. Because he knew how much this was hurting Zhan Yao, even though Zhan Yao didn’t let anyone see. But Yu Tong remembered that just a few days ago, Zhan Yao confessed to him how much he envied Yu Tong his dad, a good father…
I really love how attuned these two are to the other’s moods and needs. And also the fact that they actually talk about their issues, like adults.
So this happened to me a few days ago, and I thought maybe sharing my experience could help someone if this happens to them in the future.
I was checking my Tumblr when suddenly I was logged out from it and given the usual Log In page. When I entered the details to access my blog, this appeared:
My heart skipped a bit. I tried to re-enter the details (maybe I got them wrong the first time), but no, the same message about Termination was shown. I typed my blog URL and got the
ominous
:
Same thing with my sideblogs.
So obviously I was very worried. I contacted the Tumblr support but didn’t get an answer for 48 hours, only an automated reply. I already started mentally saying goodbye to my blogs, my posts and all my followers, when finally I recieved their answer:
(In case you can’t see the picture, it says:
Hello, We’ve restored your account. Thank you for bringing this problem to our attention. We’re sorry that it occurred, and we’ll do our best to make sure that it doesn’t happen again. You should now be able to log in just fine with your email address and password. Please let me know if there’s anything else I can help you with.
My blog was restored and working normally. All my sideblogs were intact , and so were my posts and my followers. The only thing that was lost, is all the conversations by Messages. The people with whom you talked are still there, but all the history of the conversation is gone.
Alright so here is what you should do if this happens to you. Don’t panick like I did Click on the “contact support” link provided in the terminated window. Alternatively, go on Tumblr.com/support.
Politely explain your situation – give your blog URL, your mail, tell what happened exactly. I understand that the situation can be upsetting, but the person who will read the message and try to help you isn’t directly responsible for the termination of your blog. And sending an angry message with insults isn’t the best way to get your blog back either.
Wait for the reply of the team. If you feel like it takes too much time (more than few days for example), try to fill the Help/Support form again.
Once the team is in contact with you, keep the polite tone. Normally if your blog didn’t go againt the Tumblr rules and policies, you should getit back like I did.
I feel like when you’re writing, organizing chapters and dialogue is easy
but jfc, the amount of time it takes to constantly keep people moving and make sure they’re in the right spaces and trying to come up with wording for it is always such a shock.
Like, fuck, I made you pick up a coffee cup, you need to put it down at some point. also I can’t remember what I dressed you in, can you push up your sleeves? I don’t remember if you even have your shirt on.
and YOU. YOU OVER THERE, you got out of your chair earlier, but did you come back yet? Are you coming back? Where did you even go and why’d you get up? Fuck, I can’t make you sit down again already, you just stood up, go…over there. go get more coffee. Did you bring your mug with you? fine. bring the pot to the table and—wait, wasn’t the coffee pot already over here? shit, hold on, I need to go back and re-read and re-write
this is the most relevant thing i have ever read.
I think one of the most wild things as a writer is the sensation that you’re not actually directing your characters– they’re sort of directing themselves, and you’re scrambling around attempting to copy down whatever it was that they just did, but they don’t wait for you to finish copying. They just keep walking and talking and moving around and existing of their own volition and at some point you look up and you’re like “WHOA OKAY EVERYBODY BACK THE FUCK UP WHERE ARE WE”
It’s kind of like trying to write sheet music for an orchestra while it’s playing
I haven’t been able to stop thinking about what happened to tincan in episode 14 so I then decided why not just write my own version of it so here it is
**this isn’t my best writing but I still wanted to write it, I might do more in the future depending on if I get ideas for stuff
And just like that Tin drove away leaving Can standing there, alone. Can hated the feeling in his chest as he saw the car get farther away, but what was the feeling? Regret? He didn’t know or care he just wanted it to go away.
Can found his way home, his sister Ley sits quietly in her room go through her phone full of picture featuring Tin and Pete closer than Can liked. He walked through the house and made his way towards his own room, he made his way in and there he finally let his emotions out. He sunked to the floor and yelled.
“STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!” He yelled loudly, Ley heard the yell and went to his room to yell at him like she normally did.
“Why are you yelling so loudly!?! Did something go wrong with getting Pete and Tin together? We can’t have anything go wrong, they’re perfect for each other.” Ley whined
Can stared at her with a look of disbelief and his eyes began to well up with tears. He hated the idea of Tin being with another man. But he shouldn’t hate it, right? After all he was the one to reject Tin, he hated feeling this way more than anything.
“They won’t together! Tin doesn’t even like him, he likes me! Or at least he did.” Can said the tears slowly making a way down his face. “But I was stupid enough to reject him! I like him too and he doesn’t even know it because I was too stupid to actually realize it! I think I might even love him!” Can was just yelling anything that was about Tin, he didn’t even care if Ley was listening or not.
“My brother might be in love with a handsome rich guy!? I’ll now make sure you two end up together!” She said too enthusiastically, she saw the tears in Cans eyes, they were too noticeable and he didn’t even try to hide it.
“He probably hates me, Ley. I had my chance with him but I said no! But you want to know why!? Because deep down I’m too scared to be with him because what if he thinks I’m tOo clingy and annoying, what if he starts to hate everything about me?” Can said as he started to let out sobs “I rejected him just because I’m scared.”
“Tell him everything you just told me.” Ley said.
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Can doesn’t even remember how he got here, everything has just been a blur, but there he stood in front of Tins house with puffy red eyes and tears running down his face. It took everything to knock on the door, he stood there anxiously awaiting for someone to open the door, he heard footsteps get closer and closer, he could hardly hear the foot steps over his beating chest, he’s never done something like this before.
The door opened and there he was, Tin almost couldn’t believe what he saw in front of him.
“Before you say anything let me talk first. I like you so much, I might even love you for some reason! The reason I said I just wanted to be friends was because I was scared! I was scared you would get bored of me, scared you would get annoyed by me, I was scared you would leave me because I’m too much! I still am scared but I needed you to hear this. You probably hate me and never want to talk to me again and I respect that, I’m sorry for everything I’ve done.” Can said concluding his little speech.
Tin let out a soft sigh and pulled the crying boy in for a hug, Can couldn’t help but let out a sob into Cans shoulder. He felt relieved Tin didn’t react poorly but he was still scared for what’s to come.
“There’s no need to cry, Can” Tin said stroking his hair. “You could never be “Too Much” for me. Have you ever thought about what I want? Maybe I want at all of that, I want you to annoy me, I want you to get jealous, more importantly I want you.“ Can let out another sob after hearing Tins kind soft words.
They stood there for a moment, just hugging. After Can got himself under control and stopped crying Tin lead him inside. They say down on a couch and Can stared at the floor.
“Look at me” Tin said in soft but stern voice, Can looked up and his eyes met Tins gaze.
“My dear Cantaloupe, will you be my boyfriend?” Tin asked while petting Cans hair, Can nodded aggresivily and a smile took over their faces.
“Don’t use my full nickname.” Can whined lightly, wiping away his tears.
“Shut up, Cantaloupe.” Tin said grazing Cans lips with his thumb signaling he was going to kiss him.
Tin leaned it and so did Can, he wasn’t going to deny the kiss like he would with the others. He felt Tins lips on his own, they’ve never felt this nice before. His arms made their way around Tins neck, he wanted Tin to be as close to him as possible, he never wanted to let Tin go ever.
The Last Good Bar 
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